It hurts so much to see the person you love, being sad because of someone else.
It hurts so much to see the person you love, love someone else.
AND, that SOMEONE ELSE is not you.
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN.
SHE, is younger.
SHE, is prettier.
SHE, is skinnier.
SHE, is sporty.
IF ONLY YOU KNEW...
How much I love you, how much I think of you before I go to bed every night.
Memories with you never left me, not even once. Yet, I've to act like they're come-and-go memories. I can still smile like a idiot when I randomly recalled our stupid talks and conversations, our ridiculous nicknames, our epic actions, basically everything about us.
When you held my hands, I just felt like I'm yours. I know, you're just trying to keep my hands warm, but I tend to read into stuffs more than the usual. You never knew, how much I enjoyed holding your hands, with our fingers inter-locked. You never knew, that you're the first guy whom I ever let to hold my hands, in that special way.
Why make me fall for you you when you've no intention to do the same.
Is this how you treat other girls too? I don't know, can you tell me?
I have no idea when you first came in to my mind. You used to be someone I never gave my attention to. I told myself more than a thousand times that I can't fall for you. I kept those feelings suppressed, but all of them came back to me every night, stronger than ever. There're times where I have this strong urge to tell you how I feel, but......
Ever since that day when you first held my hands, those suppressed feelings that I had for you, I've no choice but to admit that I've fell for you.
I know, you only treated me as a friend all along, nothing more than that. I should keep those feelings hidden, never to let you know. I hope that you can reconcile your friendship with her soon. I just hurts me so much to see you in such misery.
I love you.
Written this on APRIL 22, 2012.
