Oh well, life's been good I'd say. There has been some bits here and there, I'm still glad nothing major really happened. Though it's really affecting what I'm having in my thoughts right now, which kinda freaked me out whenever I think of it.
Well, life's doesn't always goes the way you want it. You've to create that path for your life to goes smoothly. There might be some ups and downs along the way, but if I looked at the positive side, everything will go right, right? Sigh, hate it whenever I'm having negative thoughts, especially at night. Negative thoughts are so negative, totally detest it. But I just cant help it. What's more can I do?
I know, I always being sucked in everything I've done. Throughout my entire life, there's nothing I've really done to make anyone proud. Always failing exams and tests, being super lazy and inactive in everything and procrastination. I've always secretly wished that I have that strong will to participate in every activities I have on hand, to be a leader, be active in sports and competitive. Yet, nothing really gives me the drive to do anything. I might have a strong urge to do something I'm really interested in at that moment, but I always either give up or forget about it.
That horrible feeling of giving up something you really want is really pitiful I shall say. That terrible feeling when you already know what you want, but you cant fulfill it because of some reasons, and your heart aches like bee stings. No one in this world would ever know that feeling unless they felt it themselves.
